Since I began creating art more prolifically in 2001 I also began writing about my process and ideas. It has become an equally important part of my life. It helps me clarify and articulate so the plastic work itself becomes more alive and authentic. These insights and writings are all dated as it helps me understand my own evolution. They usually arise as streams of awareness which I like to call “intuitive awareness.”
May 9th, 2010
I paint how I perceive.
In art it is you without the mask. My personality is a mask. No mask scares people at first. Art is the buffer…the medium for the proper digestion of truth…that we don’t need masks. Artists to me are keepers of truth. In society, we are loved and tolerated for our masks, our personality, our ability to comply and conform…not for yourself.
I refuse to be known for my mask. Life is now and never apologizes for that. I cannot see myself in the future. I am all that I will ever be…the rest is just experiencing. There is no psychology in being. Psychology was created for personalities not free men and women.
May 5th, 2010
We change all the time. We are ever expanding space travelers. To be awakened is to go with it. I am new every moment in my experiencing. I feel like a fireworks burning its joy. We are moving consciousness. My life is a mirage. The less I remember the better it gets. Memory can be hell.
It is my breath that opens my eyes. My breath begins in my belly.
January 2010
Nothing is ever one way. All tensions come from the dances of opposites. My mother revealed duality to me.
March 19th, 2011
Medium is always subordinate to the artist. If I let the medium become the dictator I become a puppet and never get to know myself as an artist. Technique is a lesser tyrant because it is finite and has no agenda…it does what it does…medium on the other hand is like a mistress…it carries ancestral conditioning such as oil, pastel, watercolor, fatherhood, brotherhood, business, thought, philosophy, gouache, finance, religion, politics, ink, tempera, human rights, marriage, romance, emotions, friendship, sentimentality, war, acrylics, etc. Medium should never define an artist. To be an artist is to be free potentially of all conditioning and create as yourself. We are all artists.
My most grateful appreciation in life is to be given the power to laugh deeply and excessively at myself and as an extension at others.
Having an authority as an artist is everything. Mine is in my gut and in the now. Authority is not free will. We compromise our authority the moment we stop listening to it. Others can be deeply aware of it and take advantage willingly or unwillingly. Recognition is a big trap for an artist.
It is my great strength and my great pain to resist uninvited conditioning.
If I spend too much time on thoughts and feelings they begin to create nostalgia and sentimentalism which condition my process rather than free it. Feelings and emotions are supposed to be watched not dealt with. They happen and I am here as a very special guest invited to watch the process and report through my paintings.
March 18th, 2011
Only artists breathe as themselves on this plane unless they have compromised too far. They are here to free everyone they come in contact with because we are all artists and come from the same Oneness. People live so far from themselves and get lost and drown in conditioning or compromises. A compromise is always a loss of power and authority though some compromises are fair and balanced.
Life is a beautiful dream but only a dream. Its navigation and pure enjoyment is at the heart of the matter not its meaning and purpose. The ultimate commodity is self-knowledge…taking stock and full responsibility for being alive in this marvelous duality
March 11th, 2011
We are expanding consciousness. Memory gives us the illusion of continuity and solidity.
In a true and mutually enriching relationship of any kind, you are either busy exposing yourself or busy making the relationship wrong regarding of the pace or style one uses. On one hand you build it and on the other you destroy it in perfect tone, timing and unison. This methodology rooted in duality therefore it works. Only the things that stand the test of duality are worthwhile in the end and can last. One-sidedness always leads to insanity. The same goes for the relationship to yourself, you are either busy exposing yourself or busy making yourself wrong regarding of the pace or style you use.
February20th, 2011
The true medium of painting is color. We do everything for its sake without knowing it. Line and shapes are subordonate to color; the same goes for black and white works where either the black or the white alternatively become the focus, either the figure or the ground but line is secondary to color always in my work. Every thing to me in art is about color. Without color I am lost.
