A Surrendered Life

As I am clearly aware that I am manifested life, nothing can possibly happen to me and others by chance. Conversely, my integrated and surrendered role is to explore my creative potential in everything I do, feel, think and say. To live, experience and stay creatively active and aware. Creativity is infinite in surrender. I am in control of my destiny and of the quality of my experiences; but only through the channels of surrender. To surrender is to let go of resistance as you become aware of it; it is an organic and ongoing process. I am often whole and total in what I feel, think and do. My intuition is alive and infinitely intelligent. Presence is my dwelling. I see my helplessness and incapacity to control life and I have a sense of humor about it.

A Non-Surrendered Life

I believe through various degrees of projections and mostly subconsciously that I am at the effect of life. I resist surrender with all I have got. My life, experiences, relationships, and myself are typically anxious and tense or busy covering it up. I need constant validation, power and control. I am always on the move and never satisfied. I trust noone and fear everything though I will never admit it. I never feel whole; I only pretend to or project it. The past or future is where I dwell. I think about myself constantly. Fear is my dwelling. I remember joy but rarely feel it nor express it. I live in hiding.

To be aware and sense both aspects of this polarity is quite something. To be aware is to not touch nor disturb anything that occurs, surfaces or manifests regarless of what it is…including all reactions to it.